Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Ugh! I Hate Waiting

I had my thyroid removed last week. Last year when I had my PET scan, my breast cancer and thyroid lit up. They have been following my thyroid for the past year with biopsies and ultrasounds. The nodule continued to grow, so the suggestion was made to have it removed. You don't know 100% percent whether or not it is cancer until you can biopsy the whole thing. So out it came. The surgery was not so bad. I spent one night in the hospital. I didn't take any pain meds other than Tylenol. Strep Throat hurt worse. Now comes the waiting for the pathology report. I hate that part. You mind goes to places it shouldn't go. It did not help that this week that one of the ladies in my May 2010 chemo group on breastcancer.org found out that her cancer has metastasized to her lungs and liver. She is 29 with a 3 year old boy. My heart cries for her. I hate this disease! It robs us of so much and changes our lives forever. Every little ache or pain and you wonder "Could that be a metastasis?" You can't help it. My buddy Ken, found out a couple of days ago that his chemo is doing its thing and fighting back his Stage IV lung cancer. I need to remember to celebrate those wins in the fight and not dwell on the losses as much.


Lin said...

I've been thinking of you, pally, and hoping it all goes well. I'm sure it is hell while you are waiting, trying to be cool, going on with your life. Ugh. I'm glad you have some positive stories to refer to. :) Let me know how it goes--in the meantime, I'm sending love, hugs, and prayers.

Merry said...

Thanks Lin!